Lately..

This month I've found myself surrounded by boxes full of stuff; stuff we've carried around for almost 5 years and 5 moves. Why do we cling to this stuff that clearly we do not need and have only used a handful of times? So this move has caused some major purging of our things. It has been good, a nice breath of fresh air. I have enjoyed seeing the boxes emptied and the stack of stuff to sell/give away growing larger. It just feel simple.

This month I've also found myself surrounded by boxes of stuff in my heart; stuff I've carried around for years.  The lies I've believed about what my life should look like, what it looks like to be a 'good' mom, how my children should act and way too much comparison.  As I cleared out the 'stuff' slowly this month and set my heart more towards the gospel and Jesus I've found much more joy and thanksgiving in my heart.  I realized what was holding me back, the stuff, it all stemmed from a long ago expectation of what life is supposed to look like.  My life is not neat, clean and perfect.  Things get messy and I fail my family daily.  Thankfully these little guys are forgiving and love me as I learn to love them and shepherd them.  Thankfully I am not perfect on my own but through Christ's death on the cross I am made perfect. 

This month has been hard but so good.  We've cleared out the junk and are learning to just live simply.  Life is passing us by quickly and I want to focus on what's in front of me and ENJOY my days with these little ones.