A New Chapter

Yesterday began a new chapter in life for me. A Chapter I've wanted to come for quite some time now. I am now officially a stay at home wife/mom!!!

Yesterday I was overflowing with thankfulness all day! I was able to go to the grocery store during the day, get caught up on laundry, make dinner, meet with my mentee and be joyful and rested when Matt came home! It was so nice to be able to hang out last night and not feel like there were a million things that needed to be done. I know this will all change in just a few short weeks when our sweet baby comes, but I am still so thankful that God has provided for us and I am able to stay home and serve my husband and son in the way Scripture calls me to. I personally could not have a full time job, love and serve my husband the way I should, have a baby and serve in the church. There is just no way I could do that and be obedient to what I know God has called me to. I am in awe of the women out there who can.

God has brought me so far in this area. I have always known deep down that being a stay at home wife/mom was what I was called to be, however in college it is so easy to get wrapped up in getting a great job, a house and all the "stuff" that goes with that. The pride of appearing to have it all and having a picture perfect little life is suffocating! Luckily, God stripped me of this within a month of getting married. I thought I would be teaching during our time of staying in College Station while Matt was still in school, however God had other, bigger and better plans. When I did not get hired by a school for that first year I had in the back of my mind that I would just teach the next year.

That was a hard year. I had an amazing job, with an amazing family, but my pride was hurt and I hated having to explain why I was not teaching. God did a lot in my life that year and broke down the walls of pride in my life. He changed my heart and showed me what an amazing opportunity I had in working for the Bacaks. When it came time to begin looking for teaching jobs again last spring, I did look. However, when Matt came to me in April and told me after a lot of prayer he felt I was not supposed to teach, but we were supposed to have a baby my heart was ready.

So that's our story, the short version anyway. Looking back now I am so thankful I did not teach, but was able to have the opportunity of working in the Bacak home and seeing real life lived out in front of me everyday. I learned more that I could have every imagined!! Thanks Jenn!!

Now I'm off to work on organizing Cade's room!! I can't believe he will be here with us within the next 3.5 weeks!